Dan
I've been struggling my whole life with weeds in my garden. I grew up in a broken (yet religious) home, I wasn't given certain opportunities bc I was not Amish like the rest. I was always told I was very talented and full of potential before being told it wasn't enough. I lived my life in (and even before) my teens being ridiculed and judged because of my heritage, my parents' divorce, and my sister's teenage pregnancy. My parents tried to buy our love and were extremely hard on us. Sadness turned to anger, even rage, and I began to believe the lie that I was no good. I bottled everything up and hid behind extreme substance abuse. I get to points where I think to myself. The limits pushed back in 2020 when I OD'd. I want to say it was an accident, but man, I don't know if can truly say that now. My gf of 6 yrs and I broke up, messing up finances, and my dad has cancer. I'm scared bc idk what the future holds anymore and I'm running out of options.